suicide

Death

August 25, 2012 · 3 comments

Firey Flowers

I think I judge my emotions too much, rather than just letting myself feel what I feel, and when someone dies, that’s always one of the more confronting times to over-think your emotions, your reactions.

When older people die, I react more to the pain of the people around me than any overly strong emotions about the person’s death. Yes, I was sad when my grandfather died, but his gradual decline over the few years leading up to it, and spending the last 6 months in hospitals made it a matter of when. Preparedness.

Same with my uncle who we lost overnight. A stroke a year ago maybe really put him out of action. And it’s been little chips away since. And so the goodbyes were expected to happen, sometime in the near future at least. Right now the biggest feeling is guilt, around not being there for people as much as I would have liked to have been.

My aunt, back at the end of first year uni, was a different story. Her daughter, finding her 40 year old mother unresponsive, ran to our house (down the street), me mum and my father running down to hopefully help, but unfortunately not being able to. The people coming up to me at the funeral thanking me for my attempts to help made me uncomfortable. Discomfort was the biggest emotion that day. And the need to comfort and look after others.

I’m not sure if it’s that I shut down? That I don’t let myself cry? Or that I rationalised the tears away? Or I’ve already processed those emotions? I’m not sure.

The younger people, Cancer taking Amanda at 26, or the suicides of Tania and Karter within a month of each other, do they hit me harder because of my own fears around what could happen to me? Because I wasn’t close to those people. But the three deaths each really shook me. There was that sense of helplessness there. I don’t like to feel that way. Or is it just the shock?

Maybe when I’m old, when I start losing peers to age-related illnesses, maybe then those sorts of deaths will affect me more outwardly.

Or maybe by then I’ll understand my own emotional processes a little better.

Take care *hug*

lifeline – 13 11 14

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My @RUOKDay post

September 15, 2011 · 7 comments

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NINJAS

I’ve put myself through a lot this past 2 months.

Moved house.

Moved cities.

Away from my partner of a billion years.

In with a housemate. even though I don’t like people that much.

A new job.

Different social circles.

Lost 2 people in my circles to suicide.

No wonder I’m a little stressed at times.

But I have things in place.

A new gym.

I walk to and from work.

I have a GP. As of yesterday.

I’m getting help in re-implementing my stress management strategies. Like not being my harshest critic ALL the time. Oh and breathing every now and then.

Look after yourselves.

With pocket ninjas.

And kind words.

Don’t be afraid of seeking someone external. Someone neutral to talk through things with. Someone who isn’t caught up in it all with you. Who is trained to give you neutral, strategic advice. Or to just be an ear. To let you know that what you think you SHOULD do actually is right. And that you CAN do it.

And if you are asking people if they’re okay, be ready that they might actually so NO. And there may be tears. It’s like that sometimes.

http://www.lifeline.org.au/ – 13 11 14

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I just found out about the second suicide of an acquaintance in the space of about a month.

it’s not right.

By all accounts, they should be happy successful you people.

But that Black Dog just keeps coming back.

At work, I’ve bought RUOK DAY cups and have sent emails to raise awareness.

I sent an email.

Talking about my colleague in Canberra who took her life last month.

That i KNOW that, while you might brush off an offer for help initially, it’s nice to know that people are there. For when you ARE ready for support and help.

Please.

Check in with friends and family.

And workmates.

Don’t just keep it superficial.

Let them know you’re there.

Even if it’s not the “right” time.

It opens a door.

Please.

Take care of each other.

http://www.lifeline.org.au/ – 13 11 14

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Sudden loss

August 11, 2011 · 5 comments

Orphan bear

Got news today that someone who worked on the other site to me in Canberra took her life last week.

An up and down day for me.

Trying to think it through, to realise what has happened.

You don’t really know anything about people.

We all have our game faces.

Some of us hold them better than others.

Take care of yourself. Take care of each other.

xx

Beyond Blue
Lifeline – 13 11 14

Setting up.

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Suicide Prevention Day

September 10, 2010 · 0 comments

Today, September 10, is World Suicide Prevention Day.

Each year, on average 65,000 Australian’s attempt to take their own lives (There are on average, approximately 130,000 total deaths per year in Australia (ABS) – of these attempts – Australia loses approximately 2,200 loved ones, although women are more likely to attempt suicide – the vast majority of those who die by suicide are males.

Nearly all suicides are preventable. This World Suicide Prevention Day, take the time to learn about suicide, recognise the signs and help to reduce the stigmaassociatedwith help-seeking – you may save a life one day.

Visit Suicide Prevention Australia, Lifeline or Beyond Blue to learn more about metal health issues and gather information that may one day help you or a friend.


Jeff Martin – Requiem/Psychopomp <3

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Serious?

January 16, 2010 · 0 comments

via Ian: Do you have suicidal thoughts after watching Avatar because you realise that Earth sucks and you wish you were on the blue people planet, Pandora? I think it might be worse that we paid $20/ticket for the pleasure of getting that way :p oh, wait, $19, but an extra $1 for a pair of glasses we can now use when the new Shrek comes out. If I don’t break them.

Looking good for Avatar

And I can’t believe I’m putting this here :p
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