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I know many people are past the point of mental health “awareness” and just want something to be done.

Personally, I watch docos like the ones that have been on the ABC this week out of personal (as a patient) and professional (as someone who work/ed/s in the field on mental health and disability) curiousity and interest. Rather than as inspiration porn or freakshows.

Last year I learned more about modern electroshock therapy, and how it’s not the barbaric practice it used to be.

This year, I only watch the comedy show #crackup at the end of Mental As.

I did like these songs:

Because well intentioned advice can be so meaningless, or at worst harmful.

Cos hitting rock bottom can help.

I laughed, and had some fun.

Apparently up to 14% of the pop have or have had personality disorders (Like Borderline or Antisocial or Avoident PD), however they didn’t rate a mention (depression, anxiety, bipolar and schizophrenia are the go at the moment). Post-natal depression is also an area I’m used to hearing about that didn’t get a peep tonight. Nor eating disorders!



They speak to me.

ETA: THIS is on the BPD program in Newcastle: http://www.abc.net.au/news/2015-10-09/living-with-borderline-personality-disorder/6839888!


Oh, Hello there, #Liptember!

by Fiona on September 1, 2015 · 1 comment

So, as we know, September is awesome.


It brings Spring, and flowers, and blossoms and fairies.

But not everyone is in that good of a place all the time.

We have our moments. Whether we rage, or cry, or just dissolve.

Some people have worse moments. And need outside help.


One of the ways to get that is through Lifeline. Lifeline is a charity that provides some telephone counselling services for those at crisis or suicide point. They also have an online option for those needed to talk things out through chat.

So, they need money

One way is through Liptember – an excuse for girl who are a little loopy like me to pucker up in all sorts of colours to talk people into helping this important service.

I have some lippies…


If you wanna sponsor me … my link is https://www.liptember.com.au/fiona-moore.

I promise a kiss to all who do (virtual or IRL)!


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I read too much online. Too many stories about the gov being arseholes. Them being dickheads to asylum seekers, or being bitches to those on Newstart or the DSP.

Them wanting to tell us we are and make us feel like second class citizens…. because we don’t have a job, because we “claim” to have a mental illness and/or disability… and so much be BLUDGERS TRYING TO RORT THE SYSTEM and screw over you, the taxpayer.

Um, haven’t I been a “taxpayer”? Haven’t I earned $77k a year and paid the associated tax so that I could support the system that I thought we had in Australia? One which knows that people need help at times. That knows that some need full time help and some others need a foot up. A foot that isn’t just cracking the whip and saying “GET A FUCKING JOB” but helping us into a place where we CAN apply for jobs. Where we CAN be the most suitable candidate. where we get OF THE DOLE, because, we mostly want to.

I try.

I do the volunteering. I have tertiary qualifications. I did really f-in good in my HSC.

I have mental health issues. Which means my references aren’t there because i tend to leave jobs at my lowest points.

Which doesn’t mean I can’t work again… it’s just hard to get that chance.


Don’t make me adult

by Fiona on July 15, 2015 · 0 comments

Pretty Fkn Embroidery. You want it.


I’m doing volunteer work that channels my skills as a speechie. And today I went to a meeting about learning support for my nephew. Werid dynamics there. Sure, I’ll do CELFs on the kids at school, just get me the $1k assessment to do it with.


IT’s fun, and scary. Doing the things I’m good at, but praying to a nonexistent god that I’m gonna get it right.

Progress? Maybe?


Toothbrush saying I hate my job toilet roll saying oh please

So, the DSS is currently looking into the good and the bad and the possible future when it comes to Disability Employment Services….

I went to the Newcastle forum today for consumers and carers. I have to say, I felt a lot like the odd one out (only recently becoming a DES client, and “only” having mental health issues and not physical, sensory or intellectual difficulties), but that did mean some of the things I DID contribute were a little unique to the group. Like, why the hell would you think it was a good idea to send a girl with mega social anxiety “door knocking” for charity as a work experience gig? Or tell a rather butch chick that she had to learn to wear makeup for interviews (also a bug bear for the Blind woman in the audience – she said sure, I’ll wear nice clothes but like fuck I’ll do eyeshadow!)

It was cool that everyone got a chance to say (or sign) something. There was one woman there with CP and rather unintelligble speech, but she had another woman with her (also with CP) who helped everyone understand what she was saying (THAT was a challenging few periods for the Auslan interpreters!).

So, the NDIS is meant to be rolled out by 2019 or 2010, and the DES is to be fully reviewed by 2018 (ie all the contracts are up for renewal) and they have to find a way to get the two working together, along with employers making those so-called “reasonable adjustments”… Oh then there’s all the stuff in the pre-workforce age range that really needs to be done. Let alone transitions.

So, if you want to look at the issues paper it is at https://engage.dss.gov.au/disability-employment-framework/issues-paper/ in various formats, and you can make a submission through the “engagement” website.

PWD form on disability employment services review summary points


Today is World Suicide Prevention Day

by Fiona on September 10, 2014 · 0 comments

Suicide Prevetion

I really don’t feel like writing today, so here’s something I copied from Lifeline:

3 Steps You Can Take to Help Prevent Suicide

1) Ask
The biggest misconception about suicide is that you shouldn’t talk about it. In fact the reverse is true. Asking someone directly “Are you thinking about suicide?” will actually decrease their risk because it shows you care.

Don’t be afraid to do this, but make sure you ask directly and clearly.

2) Listen and stay with them
If they say ‘yes’, they are suicidal, listen to them and allow them to express how they are feeling. Don’t leave them alone. Stay with them or get someone else reliable to stay with them.

3) Get help
Get them to appropriate help. Call a crisis line like Lifeline 13 11 14 or 000 if life is in danger. If you can, get in straight away and visit a GP or psychologist. Even if the danger is not immediate they may need longer term support for the issues that led to them feeling this way.

Additional suicide prevention information and resources are available on our website at www.lifeline.org.au/preventsuicide

Suicide Prevetion


Doing well ‘considering’

by Fiona on March 6, 2014 · 1 comment

Had a GP appointment today, to renew one of my scripts for my head-stuff.

A doctor I’d seen once before. For some reason I do better with the younger male doctors rather than any other group. I rarely feel under the microscope. Like I can talk fairly freely without feeling like I’m waiting for a hole to be poked in my story. To be told I’m overracting.

So, I go back to those ones. I have a couple of options now at the practice I go to at least.

And a script for my antipsychotics.

Gotta be good for everyone, considering I ran through much of what has happened since my last appointment in November.

Yeah, I’m doing okay.

Not great.

But okay, all things considered.

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I’m ok.

October 23, 2012

I’m constantly tired. (except for when I’m hyper) But loving work, and painting my nails bright colours. Energy isn’t extending to much else and I’ve been avoiding any self reflection. Stick with business, easier that way. Don’t think about the other stuff until I find what can be done about it.

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Big Day

October 17, 2012

xx Thanks. You know who you guys are.

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Weary, but Ok

October 15, 2012

I woke up well enough. With my alarm, 6am, out of bed for a walk. The sleepiness set back in after that, battled off with trusty caffeine. Which sent me buzzing a mile a minute. Churning through visuals, making up feelings boards, supports for Where is the Green Sheep?, flap visuals for Where’s Spot? Making […]

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A little blurry @ Hippo Espresso

October 14, 2012

Sometimes I can’t take a non-blurry picture. Like when I’m out for coffee with a friend after a rough few weeks. Her helping to get me laughing, and telling me that there IS light at the end of that tunnel even if I can’t, or don’t want to, see it right now. Even if I […]

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Mood changing nail polish

October 11, 2012

How quickly can one nail polish change colour? :p

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Another small step

October 8, 2012

Another small step. Being listened to. Breathe. Here comes the next wave.

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Let’s just bounce around

August 5, 2012

Morning walk, part of my ritual. Part of my sanity. Now adjusted to include an apple or other piece of fruit, to keep my stomach from eating itself before I can properly hit up breakfast.

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On why I can’t drink at the moment

July 29, 2012

It would be great if I could stop at one. A social glass of wine. Sipping slowly, to make a toast. But my head doesn’t stop me at one. It goes “oh hey, that’s relaxing, I’m not so freaked out any more by this social situation. Let’s have another!” But 2 then won’t stay at […]

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