Tied in a knot

September 16, 2014 · 1 comment


Had myself in other knots today…

Trying to see my way out of them

Talk my way out. Puzzle my way through.

Like, how to dig my way out of my unsocial hole.

The one I dug myself into through being unsocial.

The one that saw me not knowing that one of my highschool friends wasn’t just getting married on x weekend,

but that it was the Friday.

And the casual “I’ll see you all tomorrow at the wedding” by one girl stabbed into my guts.

Then seeing the photos online.

Or hearing the thanks-es.

I know I did that to myself.

By withdrawing. Not showing to trivia nights, or other events.

Not knowing.


So this weekend. A couple of birthday dinners.

And I was almost in a mess about them

When I’ve RSVP’d and all. But didn’t realised health insurance came out last night.

Checking my account ballance in a panic. Misread it. But then realise it’s ok.

I can still go on Saturday night, still go to dinner. With those people I miss.

Who might miss me.


The other knot.

The one I can’t talk about.

Not here, but it’s still there.

It’s still there.


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Apparently I’m now into the “employment pathway” stage where I have fortnightly appointments with the contracted employment consultant. If the appointment next time is like today, which it sounds like it will be, I will cry in the appointment and not just before and after it. That’s for sure.

We sat down. She says ti’s the 13 week appointment.

I of course feel like I’m getting in trouble.

Are you applying for jobs?

Yes. the ten a fortnight I’m supposed to.

Are you getting interviews?


Do you hate interviews?

Of course I do.

If you’re getting interviews you’ll get a job soon.

Oh yeah?

Have you looked on x job website?

No, because I have enough to look at on x y z.

What other jobs are you applying for?

Dunno, I applied for a couple of carers jobs, but a couple insisted on Cert III and the others said I was overqualified…


“It works better if you apply in person”

Yeah, sure. I do the phone calls to the numbers on the ads, but everything I have to apply for for speech has a process and selection criteria and so on.

And no, I’m not ready to give up and apply for retail.


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So the gorgeous Shana from Shanalogic.com sponsored me for #Liptember (and you can too!) I LOVE the things in her store, and have bought many of them over the years… here’s a few that I love the most!


I’ve been wearing this necklace HEAPS since I first got it – every time Ez sees it she exclaims “KEY!!!” and tried to claim it as her own.

Skeleton Key necklace

The Dark Infinity Necklace has had a good run on my throat…

Halloween 2009
This heart padlock choker. Its keys come as earrings! Unfortunately it’s not currently available, but the Double Padlock version is along with a double padlock bracelet, which I have and find really tricky to put on, but it’s cute as when on!

Double Padlock version

I also love my:

Rainbow Kitty Hat

Mini Sushi Necklace


The robot with headphones plush that I hope one day returns!!!

My favouritist thing in the whole store though?


The necklace of the month club!!! For this gem of a thing, you pay $189.99 (plus a bit extra for international postage) and each month for a year you get one of Shana’s necklaces at your door. So much cute and pretty!

Thanks again for sponsoring me for Liptember!!!




They come in pink, black, white, grey, brown and of course PURPLE here with free postage….

The bells are a little noisy, but cute as anything!!!!

Check them out on Ebay!


A #Liptember Update!

September 13, 2014 · 0 comments

Red!  perfect housework lippy Donate http://www.liptember.com.au/fiona-moore




Chicken Caesar Salad

I asked for salad last night for dinner, and Caesar it was. Even though the lettuce is the only salad thing about it. It has BACON in it, it’s not really salad! :p

Anyway, I’m told the following are essential to a great Caesar…

Chicken Caesar Salad

Freshly cooked bacon, let to lose some fats on the paper towel.

Chicken Caesar SaladChicken Caesar Salad

Crispy crunchy lettuce. There is a type of lettuce at woolies called the “sweet crunch” lettuce that is preferable to cos. Washed and thoroughly dried. Either with a salad spinner (that we don’t have) or again, lie on and pat dry with paper towel.

Chicken Caesar Salad

Shredded chicken breast. From a bbq chook. But the breast meat only (I would use it all. But that’s me!)

Chicken caesar salad

And the “Right” dressing (Cardini’s Caesar Salad Dressing) some anchovies, croutons (we usually get Praise croutons) and shaved Parmesan cheese (Mil Lel in this case).

And no egg. Don’t ruin it!


Yep, I registered littlelioness.net twelve years ago today.

Birthday Party Day

So, comment away! De-lurk, tell me who you are and how you found me?

Ezri's 1st Birthday Party

What do you like to see here and what you you skim over?

Liam's 2nd Birthday Party
Too much choice?

Do you like purple, or is pink more your thing?

rock :p

And dance!

Brian and Carly's Engagement Party, Town Hall Hotel, Balmain


Suicide Prevetion

I really don’t feel like writing today, so here’s something I copied from Lifeline:

3 Steps You Can Take to Help Prevent Suicide

1) Ask
The biggest misconception about suicide is that you shouldn’t talk about it. In fact the reverse is true. Asking someone directly “Are you thinking about suicide?” will actually decrease their risk because it shows you care.

Don’t be afraid to do this, but make sure you ask directly and clearly.

2) Listen and stay with them
If they say ‘yes’, they are suicidal, listen to them and allow them to express how they are feeling. Don’t leave them alone. Stay with them or get someone else reliable to stay with them.

3) Get help
Get them to appropriate help. Call a crisis line like Lifeline 13 11 14 or 000 if life is in danger. If you can, get in straight away and visit a GP or psychologist. Even if the danger is not immediate they may need longer term support for the issues that led to them feeling this way.

Additional suicide prevention information and resources are available on our website at www.lifeline.org.au/preventsuicide

Suicide Prevetion



Black and pink. :D



Silverside with white sauce and honey carrots

Started the silverside a little too late, so had to boil it rather than pop it into the slow cooker.


This time, used malt vinegar rather than apple cider.

honey carrots

Carrots were baked for about an hour – peeled and covered with honey, olive oil and some garlic and home grown rosemary.

mashed potato

Mash with butter and cream….

wilted spinach

Wilted spinach (a couple of mins in the microwave) from a neighbour’s garden

white onion sauce

White onion sauce – butter, onion, milk and flour….